A discrepancy in belief

If I did, indeed, believe 100% in god, how would I act?

Pretend for a moment that you are absolutely sure- not a bone in your body has doubt- of the truth in christianity.
EVERYTHING has absolute truth. Everything that happened in the bible happened, and everything that was foretold, will come to be. How would one act?

Well, the first important idea is this life determines my post-earth life’s eternity. That is a long time. No one wants an eternity of suffering. So I am going to order every activity in THIS life, at trying to avoid this horrible fate. I will at all times, every second of everyday, be trying to NOT sin- thinking that every second could have an eternity of consequences. It is a pretty scary thought- but I am 100% faithful so I am up to the task.

I would never cuss. I would never steal, or hurt people, or murder, or cheat. No one would EVER, EVER, EVER do these things, if real eternity were at risk. No one would ever intentionally step on a bug, or stay out with their friends drinking (because of a risk of sinning being increased). No one would try anything fun per-se because no matter how much fun you have- if it is at all risking a small sin- it is not worth it- because 1 millisecond of sin could very well destroy eons of infinity of unimaginable joy- so there would at no point be fun. I would simply live a completely ascetic, prayer-filled life in a white room. Unless someone needed help- in which case I would carefully not-sin and help them.

I would never watch TV, in case I might fill my head with bad thoughts. I would never look at a woman- unless it is a sin to not marry.... in which case I would choose the first virgin I see, and then whisk her away, after marriage, to my ascetic hut in the woods- to ensure that at no point are we at risk of adultery.

My entire life would be dedicated to not sinning. It would be spent praying, loving my wife, embracing nature. I would never eat big meals (for risk of being called gluttonous). I would never eat shellfish, or wear two different types of fibers (as are ordained in leviticus). If in my town, anyone was caught adulterating I would pelt them with stones- as is ordained in deutromony, and ensure they are killed at the town gate. Although this isn’t murder per-se because it is required by the bible. Every breath I take, every move I make, i’d be watching... my soul’s report card.

Everything in this life is utterly useless, but at the same time absolutely important. On one hand- no joy or happiness or love I could ever have on earth remotely- AT ALL compares to an eternity being under god. Yet every little sin I do, might actually ruin my chances for eternity- so every single act of sin would be met with the thought that it very well might have cut-off my chance in ETERNITY! ETERNITY! my god.

As a 100% believer I would pray everyday that I would die of natural causes, so that this life could be over as soon as possible- and I could start my eternity. There is nothing worse than having a long-life, because it is simply a bigger risk of sinning. Children who die of leukemia are some of the luckiest humans ever. They don’t have much time to risk sinning- whereas me, with my horribly healthy and long-lasting body have to endure countless trials until god blesses me with death, and hopefully eternal joy. I would wish everyday for the rapture to happen and destroy this earth. PLEASE PLEASE let it happen tomorrow. PLEASE PLEASE let a nuclear holocaust occur- to kill everyone as soon as possible, so we can get off of this rock of a pit-stop called earth, on our trip to eternity.

Please god, let me die on a good sinless day, and not a bad sinning day. Although I was such a bad kid when I was 3 and 4. I always pulled my sisters hair, and never prayed at bedtime- Oh I am going to have to be SO, SO, SO, SO good from now on- to make up for when I was 3 and 4. God, how could I have been so STUPID back then?!